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Wednesday, July 20th, 2005

Time:6:22 pm.
i'm alive?
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Wednesday, May 11th, 2005

Time:10:17 pm.
damn, i really suck. i have absolutely nothing to talk about.
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Tuesday, March 15th, 2005

Subject:hola
Time:10:54 pm.
just got home from the best day at work. we had a meeting tonight to catch up on things. we talked about things we should and shouldnt do. but the best part was the award of the night. the award was for server of the "year" and the person with the most compliments from costomers etc. the five bosses called my name, and gave me a unique shirt. they spent 10 min. on me; talking about how i started and my positives. they spoke of me like i was their son...and of course i had to cry like a baby. i am so grateful right now :)
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Friday, February 25th, 2005

Time:12:24 pm.
a new start, what a ride this is going to be :)


i don't know me and you don't know you.

we fit so good together cause..i knew you like i knew myself.
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Thursday, February 17th, 2005

Time:6:23 pm.
last week my new brother was born. he looks like an old man, but hes cute. if you want to see a picture of him let me know. something was brought to my attention today. we had mexicans visit our school. they dont speak any english. so in our spanish classes we had one to elect one person to speak with them in spanish..and then teach them some english. yea i was elected..but i must say it was an amazing experience. i mean i spoke simple spanish, but hearing them say "good mourning, how are you?" felt great. i think i mentioned in a few other posts that i like working with kids. i do, its such a great feeling. their guide talked to us about other places that need english teachers like japan, thailand etc. you can major (or minor) in something called esl (english as a second language). it really interests me because i really want to travel, but also work with people...its something to think about
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Monday, February 7th, 2005

Time:10:13 pm.
i need to stop worrying and start living. things are going great, i just think of the down side of things. i also get caught up in things, usally stupid things too. im also becoming lazy..im putting off things not to hurt anyone, there really isnt a reason. i really need to travel more too!


p.s- im in love with a girl who is a few years older than me, and is already in love and forever will be.
sounds sad, but its funny :)

before we scream and descend, steady to the sun
a simple tale of woe, your hearts won't be undone
a love song to everyone i know
arms wide open, here we go.
she weaves a trail of petals through the embryonic ice
her hair was warm to the touch and flowers twice as nice
and if he stands on the moon he can barely catch her eyes
always open to the sky
and so we land only to find we never left the ground
please leave the walls and the floors exactly as you found
a love song to everyone i know
arms wide open, here we go
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Wednesday, February 2nd, 2005

Subject:heelflip to 50-50!
Time:2:55 pm.
walking home from school today felt so great. the weather was great, perfect temperature. come home get a little loose, and i see my skateboard on the ground. took that bad boy outside and had an awesome session. i havent skated in such a long time, i had so much fun. i use to love skating, it was something that i actually did outdoors. i stopped in 9th grade because everyone was doing it, and it just overwelmed me for some reason. i felt i had to compete with everyone, and have to have they're "skateboarding fashion" according to nyack high school ugh. i think im gonna get back into it though, i had a really great time and hopefully others will join me :)


p.s. fuck skateboarding shoes..sauconys are great
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Thursday, January 27th, 2005

Subject:works fun, i like it :)
Time:11:20 pm.
i want to tell you my heart, but i cannot say English
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Tuesday, January 18th, 2005

Subject:modest mouse
Time:4:30 pm.
i talk to most of you guys online, but i like recieving e-mails and in school...i get real bored in my computer class. so e-mail me sometime :)

renholder8@hotmail.com
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Sunday, January 9th, 2005

Time:2:44 pm.
anyone want to come visit me and have some coffee? :)
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Saturday, January 1st, 2005

Time:12:00 am.
inside it all feels the same


where are you?
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Friday, December 10th, 2004

Subject:snow and lights
Time:2:40 pm.
its official...i will be busing at "cheeburger cheeburger" located at the palisades mall, next to barnes and noble. it has many pros and cons. i'll be making money, and with that money i'll save and pay for guitar lessons. i'll be adding to society by getting them refills....and getting out of the house. the downside of being a busboy here is busboys work weekends. this effects music and hanging out :\ besides that, the reason im taking guitar lessons now is because i love playing guitar. i went through phases of likeing different things and growing out of it, but i love guitar so much. it helps me be more creative. i've been thinking lately about my future and i think i've got something. i really want to become a musician. this is not a 9 year olds dream of being a rock star, im actually serious. i would love making my own music and entertaining, but my main goal would be playing for solo artists. for example beck, he writes all of his music, but hires musicians to play and tour with him. i would love doing that. being a musician seems like a hard lifestyle, so i dedcided to have a backup plan which would be teaching. i love children, they're so interesting and i love teaching my little sister. teaching provides great benefits and somewhat good pay, but im really going to focus on music. i've been looking into colleges as well. im thinking about going somewhere in ohio and texas. i've talked to subs in my school and they recommened them for music. speaking of subs, i had the coolest one today. his name is mr.goldberg and he looks exactly like mike from explosions in the sky. even better, he reads gary snyder! he also likes jeffers and he gave me a new name: edward abby. its so weird how my eyes are opened now and how life is changing for me. soon i'll be driving and that'll be a relief from walking etc. first stop home :)
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Wednesday, November 17th, 2004

Subject:First Stop Home
Time:2:44 pm.
I watch the sun come up while you're sleeping it off.




:)




...sup?
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Sunday, October 17th, 2004

Time:4:52 pm.
im cold
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Monday, October 4th, 2004

Subject:I WANT IT!
Time:2:57 pm.
http://poststuff2.entensity.net/100404/image.php?pic=relax.jpg
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Monday, September 20th, 2004

Time:6:54 pm.
of all my radiohead cds left, i have amnesiac :)
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Tuesday, September 7th, 2004

Time:8:12 pm.
blew away, but I don't wanna fade. cya summer.
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Friday, September 3rd, 2004

Time:12:59 am.
fall and winter seems to be looking VERY NICE so far :)
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Wednesday, August 18th, 2004

Time:1:46 pm.
13 hawks flying by...about roof level.
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Tuesday, August 17th, 2004

Subject:pilgrim! =o
Time:2:58 am.
sooooooooooooo addicted to morrowind
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